Something We’ll Never Know

When your name creeps up in conversation, Or sometimes on my phone, My breath catches in my chest, Despite all my efforts to keep you away, Despite all our efforts to keep emotion out of it, Because this is supposed to just be our bodies I thought I was the type of person who could …

Someday

Someday I’ll be brave enough,  To let those dreams roam,  To let flowers bloom from my chest,  Bursting skyward towards a warm sunshine It is a process,  I am growing, learning, trying,  To undo the damage done to me,  Broken but I still grow,  Sometimes my brother tells me that a broken clock is correct,  …

The Lover

Where are you now, Sweet lover of mine, Are you home under the covers, Your chest slowly rising and falling, Dreaming of an alternate divine, What picturesque visions flow through your mind After the day is finished Do you think of me? When your mind is free? As I think of you, Ever hour of …

The Capacity to Say The Words Unsaid

If I gave myself the capacity, To say all those things running through my veins, Would my mouth move in a coherent solidarity, Or would I once again swallow my words, to keep swimming through my body Oh what would I be if I allowed myself to say begin again If I could grow myself …

Confronting the empty, other half of my bed.

It’s Tuesday night, about 6:45 PM. I’m avoiding doing anything important or significant. Why do I feel such tremendous pressure to capitalize every moment of my waking day? Yeah, that’s a toxic habit. And now I’m thinking about all my other toxic habits, which is what I was actually avoiding if I’m going to be …

How It Is To Know I’m Alive

How it is to know I’m alive, Is it the air that moves in and out of me? Or is it a force much greater? Something I cannot yet understand? What are all the things that make me human? Could it be the songs I sing in the morning, The off-pitch flowing with the breeze, …

Before I Leave In The Morning

Before I leave in the morning, I tend to hold you close, Trying to lengthen every second that I have been gifted with you, Hoping to lay there beside you forever, Kissing your shoulders, your chest, your hands For this is what I was created to do You’ve never been one to lay in bed, …

When the Phone Rings

Every time I hear my phone buzz twice, My heart jumps, my pulse races, Every dopamine receptor in my brain stops working, And if I see your name on that screen, The corners of my mouth betray the cool exterior I am trying to compose, And I smile. Do you know what you’re doing to …

Are You Ready for This?

Did you know I am both lighting and thunder, The type of girl who’s gonna make you wonder, Who you are and the man you’ve been; What you’ve done, all your sin, Your reckless abandon, the earth you’ve scorned, What you’ve left behind, all the scars you have worn, Were you ready for this? I …

The Permanent Mailing Address

I think you’re more broken than I am, and you’re deathly afraid to open yourself back up, And that’s okay because that’s where you’re at right now, But I believe in healing, and finding the strength to lean back in to the vulnerability, For if you break me, I will not be scattered into unusable …